19:54 | SEPTEMBER 4, 2016

I never wish to be easily defined

 

Today was such a successful day for me! I woke up with the sun in my face. Can a day start better? I do not think so..! For breakfast I had company from my boyfriend’s family and we philosophized around. It’s so nice to talk about everything with different people. Then my journey started. I drove to a school in another city. A psychology school, I liked it so much! It could really be something I’ll enjoy. I love helping people and advising them, I probably inherited from dad. 

INSPIRATION              THOUGHTS

         

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On the way to my grandmother I met two old ladies. So sincere! Than I met a girl of my age, we talked because we could not continue our train route and had  to take another one. She told me about her studies and she was so cute. Today everyone is in a good mood, aaah the sun! So beautiful. After lunching with my grandmother and waiting for my next bus, I met a very nice couple with such a cute dog. So many nice conversations with people, of whom I will probably never see again, but who have made my day. It’s amazing how strangers can improve your mood. Just talk to each other. Now I’m in a small café near the city, missing my bus, sitting at the laptop and realizing how nice it is today.
My train after school was canceled, I had to walk a long way, I missed my bus and for two days I had no mobile phone battery anymore. Otherwise I would be upset about all this, but lately I realize that these little things can not ruin your day. You can get so much out of a day so why get upset that the bus is late? I prefer to sit down and write and drink delicious Lemon yogoschino (you really should try) and enjoy the spring weather! Immediately I’m on my way home to our new apartment and hope that the small package has arrived with the beautiful sunglasses I had ordered last week!

Have a nice sunny day
xxx

19:54 | SEPTEMBER 4, 2016

I never wish to be easily defined

INSPIRATION              THOUGHTS

         

The last few months I heard that many people talk about me in school, which I left in summer this year. Most of them talked about ‚what is she doing right now?’ And than they started judging. I hate it. I know that I am not an ordinary who is doing everything other people expect me to do. I finished school one year before it’s officially done and I dropped out my voluntary year, because I can’t handle my emotions and thoughts. So now here I am.

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Life isn’t easy! Life is also unfair and a lot of people have to go trough the most bullshit to get the best. Sometimes I am asking myself how much bullshit I can get trough in such a short time. In school times I could not understand why I was crying every week. But it’s  easy to answer.. Everyone has their own problems and struggles to deal with everyday. I hated school, even if I’m an open-minded person I was very shy in front of the class and I haven’t got self-confidence at all. Also I have test-anxiety, so I decided to quit school before it ends. Unfortunately I haven’t got an idea what I could do next. I am very interested in fashion and photography but it isn’t easy to find something with grades which doesn’t fit that ideal image.

What most people care about is that I want to do my own thing, that I want to do something I love, something I am happy with. They do not understand that this is what life is about. Or am I wrong? I’m pretty sure that if you believe in something you can do it. You will struggle, we all will do, but everyone should keep on going. Many people want a regular life like: kindergarden, school, studies, a good job, much money, a big house and a happy family. But I am sure, you won’t get a happy family only because you do all these things. Why don’t you want to live your life that at the end of it you are able to say: “I truly lived my life and I DON’T regret the things I didn’t do because I did everything I ever wanted to.“ Life is not meant to simply work, wait for the weekend and pay rent.